Well, that exercise was certainly productive for you. You've seen a great deal in a short time. Characteristically, you respond to the increase in insight by imagining an invitation "to truly restructure life" that begins by cooling down between workouts. You're right that you have built a perpetual motion machine, but even running it in lower gear between blast-offs is, as you can tell, a road to more wisdom.
You are right that your ability to exude boundless energy cannot be put only to making justice. It must also make for you the security, absence of external conflict, which you accidentally but perfectly call "peach," that is a precondition to the successful operation of your system. But you see that large-firm practice will absorb all the energy you can produce, converting it moderately efficiently to money, particularly over the medium to long-term. Without taking on the whole effort to restructure life, I think that leads to come conclusions about the likely value of restructuring work, so that the effort expended in your practice on producing justice and that producing security could balance better for you, and for society.
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